Harsh Reality

Sometimes I get completely obsessed with a non fictional character from a book or a movie. It's always from a romance of course, my favorite type of movie/book. The character is always a type of man that all women dream of having.  A man who loves with his heart and soul. And when I experience a character like this, I get completely obsessed with them.

Silly things, like imaging a love so strong. Imagining if I were the girl in the movie and how my life would be. Or how it would feel to be loved so deeply by someone. It's nice to step away from reality for one moment. That's what I call my happy place and the song I posted in my last post helps me get there. But just like when the song ends, my happy place comes to an end and I'm snapped back into my harsh reality.

Let Me Sign

She was standing there by the broken tree

Her hands were all twisted she was pointing at me
I was damned by the light coming out of her eyes
She spoke with a voice that disrupted the sky
She said ' Come on over to the bitter shade,
I will wrap you in my arms
and you'll know you've been saved'
Let me sign, let me sign,
can't fight the devil so just let me sign

Performed by: Robert Pattinson

DIY Shredded Sweater

This song makes me feel unnaturally happy and very in love.  It's so beautiful and I'm in in love with it. It makes me want to put on a white almost sheer dress, find a tall grass field and run around. It really takes me to a happy place and while I listen to it, I completely forget all of my problems. I wish he performed the whole song but I probably wouldn't know what to do with myself.

Something Different

I don't know what took me so long to put this up (oh yeah, laziness). I was excited that I was able to shoot two outfit post in one week. It's almost impossible to do just one, so I'm surprised I didn't find the urge to put it up sooner.  

I actually really wanted to wear heels with this outfit because, of course, heels complete every outfit. I just wasn't feeling up to it though, or actually, I was late for class. The walk is fifteen minutes long and wearing heels would only make me much, much later. So, I tried something different...my converse. Haven't worn them in forever and I like how it made the outfit look. Just something different.

Solitude

Alone I sometimes sit
Just me and my thoughts
And other times, it is my thoughts
That just sit alone with me.

                 -unknown

Enough with all these depressing post right!?

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it

Ever have a ugly day? A day where you just feel....ugly? When you feel everybody looks better than you and that makes your whole day horrible? Well, I've been having an ugly month! When I feel like this, I start to compare myself to everyone! Being on places like tumblr and lookbook doesn't help either. Is everyone beautiful BUT me?? My god!

So, all I can do is compare myself to the girls that I think are extremely beautiful and stylish. Why can't I be short and petite? Why can't I have perfect skin? Why can't my style be extremely amazing? It's the most annoying thing that I do. All it does is make me feel bad about myself. Usually, I know what brings this on but I'm really in the dark here. Maybe I have too much free time on my hands.

I always find something to change about myself when I'm feeling like this. Like, my hair or my makeup and as you may have noticed I have new hair. I know it's super silly and ridiculous but I know everyone has one of these moments. To bring myself out of theses depressing times, I really have to sit back and evaluate myself. I have to remember myself worth. I know I'm fine just the way I am. The comparing has got to stop. 

I'm just having a moment.