Thursday, July 28, 2011

Peace of Mind

So much is on my mind from the kind of food I need to have, the new clothes I need to get, the perfect jewelry I want to start wearing, how I want my room to look, etc. So many different things going on in my mind and it  begins to overwhelm me. When I get overwhelmed I'm completely useless. I just sit around lost in my thoughts doing nothing.

 How do I break this? By doing the simple things that I love. Like watching movies. I adore movies. Watching movies is something that really puts me in my happy place. I don't know what it is about movies that makes me so happy and gets me so relaxed. The other night, ABC played all of the Harry Potter movies. I watched every movie and of course it relaxed me. I actually got some homework done which is great because I'm a big procrastinator. So, to the simple things in life that makes us happy (holds imaginary glass up). Cheers!

Here's some more gorgeous scenery of the water. This is what the view from my balcony looks like.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

We do not see things as they are..

You really don't know what you have until it's gone. As cliche' as that sounds it couldn't be more true for me right now. In one of my previous post I explained how much I'm not liking my move to Miami and I wanted to give a little more insight to that so you can understand exactly how I feel. By the way, thank you guys so much for your encouraging words. I really appreciate it. Nice to know you are listening reading.

When I was at Bethune-Cookman (my previous school) I did nothing but complain about how much I didn't like it. Everyone around me would, actually. We had nothing nice to say about it, but we all had one thing in common. We all couldn't wait to come back after summer break. Yes, so hypocritical. Even though we complained, Bethune was a place you got use to, somewhere you learned to enjoy. It was your home away from home. 

The bottom line is now that I'm here in Miami I realized what I left behind. I left my very best friend along with many other close friends, the convenience of the campus, my organization, the empowerment from being at an HBCU, my boyfriend, that home feeling and my happiness. The main thing is that I realized how happy I actually was there. Especially since I have something to compare it to. I understand the opportunities this school and living in Miami can bring me, but it's not the only way. 
entire outfit thrifted + shoes- charlotte russe

I'm a traditional college kind of girl. So, this type of school just isn't for me. At least not yet. The atmosphere is just so different here and not in a good way. It's not welcoming, very cold. To be at an art school I just don't see the enthusiasm I thought I would. So, I won't be staying. I'm fine with finding a different way into the fashion industry. This way just isn't for me. 

P.S. sorry for the bad quality pics. I shot on my balcony which gets NO light.  My face seriously looks like shit!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Confidence is Preparation

Want to embarrass me? Make me take pictures of myself in a crowded park while everyone watches me like I'm crazy. That's exactly what is going on in these shots. You're looking at an embarrassed face. I can't believe I pushed through it. I usually would have seen the people and just walked away, but I didn't. It's little things like that that embarrass me. Not things like tripping in my heels, which I do a million times a day. 

Another thing that embarrasses me is going out the house with no make up on. Yeah I know, very typical. Unfortunately, it's very true. I'm a nervous, self-conscious wreck. I'm a totally different person when I'm not wearing any make up. The beautiful, confident, head to the sky girl disappears and is replaced with a girl that hangs her head low, hides her face and is awkwardly shy. That's horrible right?

Well, that's how I've been for the last few days. I haven't been wearing any make up. I challenged myself to go without make up for at least 7 days. The main reason being because I'm currently suffering a horrible break out and wearing make up over it is not helping. The other is because I'm on a journey to overcoming my insecurities. My skin being at the top of the list. I don't want to feel like I always have to wear makeup to feel beautiful. I have a long road ahead of me...

P.S.- Meet Miami. My new home....for now.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

The Fourth| My Birthday| My Move to Miami

Where have the days went? So much to talk about and share with you guys. Unfortunately, it won't be any good news. Just rambles of my silly unhappiness. First, I'll share with you what I wore for the fourth. The fam and I went to the Capital Fourth in DC. The only exciting thing was seeing hearing Jordan Sparks sing. I'm not a fan of her but she has an AMAZING voice. I didn't even enjoy the fireworks. *yawns* It was pretty boring. They're nothing like the ones in Atlanta. I did enjoy being out there though. At least we were doing something!

Moving on to more important things. My birthday just passed! Shout out to Addicted 2 Etsy  for wishing me a happy birthday in my previous post. It was July 7th and I turned 20. As I mentioned big deal. The day before my birthday I left for Miami and new student orientation was actually on my birthday. I must say, it was the worst day ever, just dreadful! Anyways, I moved into my new dorm/apartment as well. It's very nice and so are my three other roommates. Unfortunately, I hate my room. It's too small. Me and my roommate can never set it up a way where we both like it. To add to that the ceilings are not closed so I can hear EVERYTHING going on outside my door. It's horrible. I can never go to sleep when I want to. Here are some pics of me in Miami.

On my Birthday. I was walking to Target. It was far.

My bum gear. Threw this on to run errands. (Third day in Miami) I was hoping on a free train here, at the Omni.

This is today. My first day of school. It went well.

Even though everything is going well, I can't fight the urge to want to go home. I have no clue what it is I hate so much about being here but I'm just not happy. Every five minutes I'm thinking about leaving. I love studying fashion but I don't know, it doesn't seem worth it right now. Hopefully my feelings change as time goes by.

P.s.- I"ll be back to my regular outfit post tomorrow. I found a thrift store while I was here. ; ) Turns out I won't be able to post as much as I did when I was in school previously. I don't have as much free time as I once did. So, I'll try to post at least once a week.

Friday, July 1, 2011

"Leave no stone unturned."

Stripe top-forever 21, stripe shorts-thrifted, combat boots-DSW, nude slingbacks- Charlotte Russe

I tried something new today. I decided to give the black lipstick a go. It's actually black lip liner & a mix of my violet lipstick. I must say that I'm in love with it. I think it looks absolutely fabulous!! I also did something new with my hair. A style I will be revisiting if I can get it right again.

The shorts that I'm wearing were thrifted. You've seen them in my haul post. I thought it would be fun to pair them with another striped top. I can't see myself wearing them with just a plain shirt. I paired then with combat  boots and sling backs. I wanted to show you guys how it would look dressed up. If I was thinking I would grabbed a jacket to pair it with the heels. 

Anyways, just counting down the days until my departure to Miami. I have my flight set up already. Even though I'm not excited about going anymore, I'm just going to make the best out of it. Try to shove the feelings  that I have towards my old school to the back of my head.