Velvet

So, I'm in love with velvet! I got this velvet skirt from American Apparel. They have four colors and I plan on getting them all. Well, I want them all but I don't know if I'll be getting them all ha ha. Let's hope for the best. Velvet is such a pretty material that can be dressed up or down, I just love it! I have a pretty cool top on. The back is cut out and tied at the top but of course I forgot to snap a pic of it. 

If  you want to see it in motion you can go to my youtube channel fashionably and watch it there. 

                                                      top & bracalets: dailylook.com| velvet skirt : american apparel| tights: forever 21

I thought that I'd mention I plan on giving my blog a new look. I'm not exactly sure what I want to do yet, so the layout may keep changing for a few days.

Things will get better with time

I'm glad to say that everything has been going much better since the last time I posted. I am now employed at American Apparel and having a job has made everything a lot better. So, I now spend most of the week working. I must say, working retail is not as "fun" as I thought it would be but no complaints here. I'm just enjoying working. I'll be adding some American Apparel clothes in with my wardrobe because I have a lot of there clothes now, being we have to dress in all AA. 

                                                                           american apparel shoes| forever 21 tights| thrifted sweater & shorts

I have been gone for a while but I will be back to my regular posting. It's been way too long. Plus, I'll have way more time on my hands. Winter break is coming up. 

...and when I'm gone, there's no turning back.

I made it through the first quarter at my new school in Miami. It's been three long months and I'm still ready to leave more than ever. I am, however, being more optimistic about the rest of my stay here. I'm really determined to find a job in retail to gain experience in the area and to save for my very first apartment. I do a lot of complaining about what I don't have but I never actually try to change that. Well, now I will.

 top & bag: thritfted| skirt: forever 21| shoes: Ross

I realized I don't have to depend on anyone but myself to get the things I want. My mother was doing it on her own at my age, and she had a child. It's just me, so if she could manage I definitely can.  I just want to start being more responsible and stop sitting around waiting for things to happen. It's time to start making them happen. The first step is finding a job. Second, getting the hell out of Miami.

Harsh Reality

Sometimes I get completely obsessed with a non fictional character from a book or a movie. It's always from a romance of course, my favorite type of movie/book. The character is always a type of man that all women dream of having.  A man who loves with his heart and soul. And when I experience a character like this, I get completely obsessed with them.

Silly things, like imaging a love so strong. Imagining if I were the girl in the movie and how my life would be. Or how it would feel to be loved so deeply by someone. It's nice to step away from reality for one moment. That's what I call my happy place and the song I posted in my last post helps me get there. But just like when the song ends, my happy place comes to an end and I'm snapped back into my harsh reality.

Let Me Sign

She was standing there by the broken tree

Her hands were all twisted she was pointing at me
I was damned by the light coming out of her eyes
She spoke with a voice that disrupted the sky
She said ' Come on over to the bitter shade,
I will wrap you in my arms
and you'll know you've been saved'
Let me sign, let me sign,
can't fight the devil so just let me sign

Performed by: Robert Pattinson

DIY Shredded Sweater

This song makes me feel unnaturally happy and very in love.  It's so beautiful and I'm in in love with it. It makes me want to put on a white almost sheer dress, find a tall grass field and run around. It really takes me to a happy place and while I listen to it, I completely forget all of my problems. I wish he performed the whole song but I probably wouldn't know what to do with myself.

Something Different

I don't know what took me so long to put this up (oh yeah, laziness). I was excited that I was able to shoot two outfit post in one week. It's almost impossible to do just one, so I'm surprised I didn't find the urge to put it up sooner.  

I actually really wanted to wear heels with this outfit because, of course, heels complete every outfit. I just wasn't feeling up to it though, or actually, I was late for class. The walk is fifteen minutes long and wearing heels would only make me much, much later. So, I tried something different...my converse. Haven't worn them in forever and I like how it made the outfit look. Just something different.

Solitude

Alone I sometimes sit
Just me and my thoughts
And other times, it is my thoughts
That just sit alone with me.

                 -unknown

Enough with all these depressing post right!?

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it

Ever have a ugly day? A day where you just feel....ugly? When you feel everybody looks better than you and that makes your whole day horrible? Well, I've been having an ugly month! When I feel like this, I start to compare myself to everyone! Being on places like tumblr and lookbook doesn't help either. Is everyone beautiful BUT me?? My god!

So, all I can do is compare myself to the girls that I think are extremely beautiful and stylish. Why can't I be short and petite? Why can't I have perfect skin? Why can't my style be extremely amazing? It's the most annoying thing that I do. All it does is make me feel bad about myself. Usually, I know what brings this on but I'm really in the dark here. Maybe I have too much free time on my hands.

I always find something to change about myself when I'm feeling like this. Like, my hair or my makeup and as you may have noticed I have new hair. I know it's super silly and ridiculous but I know everyone has one of these moments. To bring myself out of theses depressing times, I really have to sit back and evaluate myself. I have to remember myself worth. I know I'm fine just the way I am. The comparing has got to stop. 

I'm just having a moment.

Peace of Mind

So much is on my mind from the kind of food I need to have, the new clothes I need to get, the perfect jewelry I want to start wearing, how I want my room to look, etc. So many different things going on in my mind and it  begins to overwhelm me. When I get overwhelmed I'm completely useless. I just sit around lost in my thoughts doing nothing.

 How do I break this? By doing the simple things that I love. Like watching movies. I adore movies. Watching movies is something that really puts me in my happy place. I don't know what it is about movies that makes me so happy and gets me so relaxed. The other night, ABC played all of the Harry Potter movies. I watched every movie and of course it relaxed me. I actually got some homework done which is great because I'm a big procrastinator. So, to the simple things in life that makes us happy (holds imaginary glass up). Cheers!

Here's some more gorgeous scenery of the water. This is what the view from my balcony looks like.

We do not see things as they are..

You really don't know what you have until it's gone. As cliche' as that sounds it couldn't be more true for me right now. In one of my previous post I explained how much I'm not liking my move to Miami and I wanted to give a little more insight to that so you can understand exactly how I feel. By the way, thank you guys so much for your encouraging words. I really appreciate it. Nice to know you are listening reading.

When I was at Bethune-Cookman (my previous school) I did nothing but complain about how much I didn't like it. Everyone around me would, actually. We had nothing nice to say about it, but we all had one thing in common. We all couldn't wait to come back after summer break. Yes, so hypocritical. Even though we complained, Bethune was a place you got use to, somewhere you learned to enjoy. It was your home away from home. 

The bottom line is now that I'm here in Miami I realized what I left behind. I left my very best friend along with many other close friends, the convenience of the campus, my organization, the empowerment from being at an HBCU, my boyfriend, that home feeling and my happiness. The main thing is that I realized how happy I actually was there. Especially since I have something to compare it to. I understand the opportunities this school and living in Miami can bring me, but it's not the only way. 

entire outfit thrifted + shoes- charlotte russe

I'm a traditional college kind of girl. So, this type of school just isn't for me. At least not yet. The atmosphere is just so different here and not in a good way. It's not welcoming, very cold. To be at an art school I just don't see the enthusiasm I thought I would. So, I won't be staying. I'm fine with finding a different way into the fashion industry. This way just isn't for me. 

P.S. sorry for the bad quality pics. I shot on my balcony which gets NO light.  My face seriously looks like shit!

Confidence is Preparation

Want to embarrass me? Make me take pictures of myself in a crowded park while everyone watches me like I'm crazy. That's exactly what is going on in these shots. You're looking at an embarrassed face. I can't believe I pushed through it. I usually would have seen the people and just walked away, but I didn't. It's little things like that that embarrass me. Not things like tripping in my heels, which I do a million times a day. 

Another thing that embarrasses me is going out the house with no make up on. Yeah I know, very typical. Unfortunately, it's very true. I'm a nervous, self-conscious wreck. I'm a totally different person when I'm not wearing any make up. The beautiful, confident, head to the sky girl disappears and is replaced with a girl that hangs her head low, hides her face and is awkwardly shy. That's horrible right?

Well, that's how I've been for the last few days. I haven't been wearing any make up. I challenged myself to go without make up for at least 7 days. The main reason being because I'm currently suffering a horrible break out and wearing make up over it is not helping. The other is because I'm on a journey to overcoming my insecurities. My skin being at the top of the list. I don't want to feel like I always have to wear makeup to feel beautiful. I have a long road ahead of me...

P.S.- Meet Miami. My new home....for now.

The Fourth| My Birthday| My Move to Miami

Where have the days went? So much to talk about and share with you guys. Unfortunately, it won't be any good news. Just rambles of my silly unhappiness. First, I'll share with you what I wore for the fourth. The fam and I went to the Capital Fourth in DC. The only exciting thing was seeing hearing Jordan Sparks sing. I'm not a fan of her but she has an AMAZING voice. I didn't even enjoy the fireworks. *yawns* It was pretty boring. They're nothing like the ones in Atlanta. I did enjoy being out there though. At least we were doing something!

Moving on to more important things. My birthday just passed! Shout out to Addicted 2 Etsy  for wishing me a happy birthday in my previous post. It was July 7th and I turned 20. As I mentioned before..no big deal. The day before my birthday I left for Miami and new student orientation was actually on my birthday. I must say, it was the worst day ever, just dreadful! Anyways, I moved into my new dorm/apartment as well. It's very nice and so are my three other roommates. Unfortunately, I hate my room. It's too small. Me and my roommate can never set it up a way where we both like it. To add to that the ceilings are not closed so I can hear EVERYTHING going on outside my door. It's horrible. I can never go to sleep when I want to. Here are some pics of me in Miami.

On my Birthday. I was walking to Target. It was far.

My bum gear. Threw this on to run errands. (Third day in Miami) I was hoping on a free train here, at the Omni.

This is today. My first day of school. It went well.

Even though everything is going well, I can't fight the urge to want to go home. I have no clue what it is I hate so much about being here but I'm just not happy. Every five minutes I'm thinking about leaving. I love studying fashion but I don't know, it doesn't seem worth it right now. Hopefully my feelings change as time goes by.

P.s.- I"ll be back to my regular outfit post tomorrow. I found a thrift store while I was here. ; ) Turns out I won't be able to post as much as I did when I was in school previously. I don't have as much free time as I once did. So, I'll try to post at least once a week.

"Leave no stone unturned."

Stripe top-forever 21, stripe shorts-thrifted, combat boots-DSW, nude slingbacks- Charlotte Russe

I tried something new today. I decided to give the black lipstick a go. It's actually black lip liner & a mix of my violet lipstick. I must say that I'm in love with it. I think it looks absolutely fabulous!! I also did something new with my hair. A style I will be revisiting if I can get it right again.

The shorts that I'm wearing were thrifted. You've seen them in my haul post. I thought it would be fun to pair them with another striped top. I can't see myself wearing them with just a plain shirt. I paired then with combat  boots and sling backs. I wanted to show you guys how it would look dressed up. If I was thinking I would grabbed a jacket to pair it with the heels. 

Anyways, just counting down the days until my departure to Miami. I have my flight set up already. Even though I'm not excited about going anymore, I'm just going to make the best out of it. Try to shove the feelings  that I have towards my old school to the back of my head.

I'm waiting for you, excitement!

Today officially marks the end of June. That means I have exactly seven days until I have to be at new student  orientation and seven days until my birthday. I'll be in Miami on my birthday, turning 20. Nothing special, its just 20 after all. I am disappointed because I'm sure my birthday will be stressful instead of awesome and I'll most likely be annoyed. Worst of all, I won't be with the one person I want to celebrate it with.

 Even though I should be excited, I'm not. I've just been waiting for it to kick in. I'm moving to an awesome city and I'm about to start studying fashion for God sake! But all I can think about is how alone I'm going to be and how much I'm going to miss my old school. Maybe it'll kick in once I get there...hopefully. 

blazer & shorts-thrifted, shoes & top-forever 21

I took these photos when the sun was going down, so that should explain the shadows and darkness. I was also getting attacked by a swarm of bugs. I can't believe that I was able to sit long enough to take these photos. My legs were itching like crazy. Anyway, I'm finally wearing the tribal print blazer that I got from the thrift store. I adore it. I have so many ways I want to wear it.