...and when I'm gone, there's no turning back.

I made it through the first quarter at my new school in Miami. It's been three long months and I'm still ready to leave more than ever. I am, however, being more optimistic about the rest of my stay here. I'm really determined to find a job in retail to gain experience in the area and to save for my very first apartment. I do a lot of complaining about what I don't have but I never actually try to change that. Well, now I will.

 top & bag: thritfted| skirt: forever 21| shoes: Ross

I realized I don't have to depend on anyone but myself to get the things I want. My mother was doing it on her own at my age, and she had a child. It's just me, so if she could manage I definitely can.  I just want to start being more responsible and stop sitting around waiting for things to happen. It's time to start making them happen. The first step is finding a job. Second, getting the hell out of Miami.

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it

Ever have a ugly day? A day where you just feel....ugly? When you feel everybody looks better than you and that makes your whole day horrible? Well, I've been having an ugly month! When I feel like this, I start to compare myself to everyone! Being on places like tumblr and lookbook doesn't help either. Is everyone beautiful BUT me?? My god!

So, all I can do is compare myself to the girls that I think are extremely beautiful and stylish. Why can't I be short and petite? Why can't I have perfect skin? Why can't my style be extremely amazing? It's the most annoying thing that I do. All it does is make me feel bad about myself. Usually, I know what brings this on but I'm really in the dark here. Maybe I have too much free time on my hands.

I always find something to change about myself when I'm feeling like this. Like, my hair or my makeup and as you may have noticed I have new hair. I know it's super silly and ridiculous but I know everyone has one of these moments. To bring myself out of theses depressing times, I really have to sit back and evaluate myself. I have to remember myself worth. I know I'm fine just the way I am. The comparing has got to stop. 

I'm just having a moment.