"Happy, are those who Dream"

I didn't even have to ask. I went to work one day last week, covering a co-workers shift and I was asked to go to the office. I thought I was in trouble. I'd been late almost everyday that week. (The bus is no joke!) I thought I was finally about to get my first write up. I probably was overreacting though, it wasn't even my manager asking to see me, but still, you never know. My heart dropped when he asked me if I was interested in being a display merchandiser, at least I think that's the job title. Um, yeah I would!!

top-american apparel| pants-thrifted| shoes-forever 21| 

Simply put, I'll be styling the display windows. All I ever wanted to do. No more peasant work (what I call my sales position). I am getting a head of myself though. I still have to go through "training" and past a "test" to actually get the position, which is freaking me out! Knowing that I actually have to get tested makes me nervous because that means the job is not guaranteed. There's a possibility that I could fail. I haven't signed any papers yet. I'll be training all of this week starting today. *fingers crossed*

"Decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it!"

I've never been the type to be afraid to do what I want. So, I'm very surprised that yesterday I didn't ask for the only position I'm interested in doing at my job. That's to be a visual merchandiser. I'm taking visual merchandising classes now and I realized I actually like the crap. It's the closest thing I can get to styling right now. And it definitely beats being a sales associate a.k.a a maid/servant to rude people.

So, why didn't I ask about the position when I had the perfect opportunity? Where did this foreign feeling come from? I mean, the worse thing that could happen is getting rejected. But that's just it! I was all of sudden terrified of being told no, you don't qualify. We need someone with more experience. That's why I was afraid. I have absolutely nothing to bring to the table. I'm totally unprepared. But there's nothing wrong with finding out exactly what it is I need to do to be considered.

Pants & Chiffon Button Down| American Apparel | Black Wedges| Forever 21

I'm just resting my eyes...

I'm on the brink of exhaustion. I swear there's not enough time in the day. It seems like I'm always doing stuff but get so little done. I found myself getting an hour of sleep last night. But that was kind of my fault. I stayed up way later than I needed to and knowing I had an 8am work meeting. Now, I have to work a closing shift exhausted. Bottom line, I learned my lesson.

Other than that my mood is pretty good. My store made our goal for the month and that means free clothes!! I'm very pleased with my choices. When we get free clothes I always make sure I get the most expensive things I want. That way I won't have to worry about giving half my paycheck back to the company. I've actually have a problem now with spending my money in that place. Something I thought I would never say but that's a whole different story for another day.

 Lace Top & Knee Highs| American Apparel| Shorts & Blazer| Thrifted| Shoes| Aldo